As it often does my Thursday afternoon workout with my friend has inspired some musings from me. I know you're excited. My musings are the stuff of legends. ;)
My friend and I were discussing our constant state of single-ness and how, no matter what we try to do or how we try to get things moving, nothing changes. We have discussed this at length on more than one occasion and have decided that we just need to let go of our worries and concerns and let God handle it. He's going to regardless and we've gotten SEVERAL signs that we might as well just accept that. In this year alone between us we've had no less than 5 "possibilities" go completely awry. One guy, who was about to be set up with one of us actually took a job out of state. You can't make this stuff up people. Sign after sign that no matter what we do "it" isn't going to happen until it happens. Until God decides we're ready and it's time for "it" to happen. Let go.
But that is far easier than it sounds. I would love to be able to turn off the part of my mind that worries about finding someone and having a family. I'd love the be able to turn off the part of my brain that worries or obsesses about anything and everything from work, to family, to money, to my health but frankly, I have yet to be able to do that. I've prayed about it, I've talked about it but I just have not been able to make it happen. It is FAR easier said than done.
So we discussed it again, for the umpteenth time. And then, on the way home, my iPod set to shuffle landed on The Beatles "Let it Be". In case you live under a rock and are not familiar with the lyrics they go a little something like this:
"When I find myself in times of trouble, Mother Mary comes to me, speaking words of wisdom, Let it be. And in my hour of darkness she is standing right in front of me, speaking words of wisdom, Let it be."
Are you kidding me? Could this have been any more clear? Obviously God, in his infinite wisdom (and in my opinion, his healthy sense of humor and irony) decided to remind me, once again, that's I need to let it go. To "Let it be.."
So I'm going to try. To really try. To let go of the little obsessions and compulsions and worries that are a waste of time and that change nothing. To give up the control I cling to desperately over things that are, 99 times out of 100, completely out of my control. I'm going to pray about it and I'm going to let go...and let God.